Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Behind The Scenes - Reality



 
Linking Up with Crystal Stine today for Behind The Scenes.
Take a snapshot and write about the moments leading up to it....
 
May 2012 and freshly finished at the salon.  A peaceful day in the midst of a raging storm. I thought that at least this....this is one thing that I have done right....God gave me grace in this one little part of my life.  That's not the reality.  There isn't one part of my life that is actually under my control.  There isn't one aspect that He doesn't want to be Lord over.  I am not a perfect parent.  Shocker.  I can talk and pray and do my very best to instill the values I hold for myself and my children....but the reality is they have to make choices too.  They aren't little anymore.  They have to make choices and bear the weight of them just like I do.  And to stand by and watch is excruciating.  He humbled me yet again today.  I got a glimpse into what it must be like for Him to watch me walk this road, watch me grow, see what has taken root and what hasn't, see what will make me fall and see what has made me stronger.  He knows.  He sees.  He gives grace.  Especially on the hard days when I realize I don't have anything held together on my own, it's His hands holding me.


4 comments:

  1. What a beautiful post. I don't think I'm as far along in the parenting journey as you but those days are coming. Isn't grace fabulous? I try to rest in the comfort that His hands are holding me. Thanks for sharing with us today. -Heidi

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  2. There are days, often lately, when it's all I can do to just fall into His arms. I'm so thankful He's got me when I really can't stand on my own...and that His grace is always enough. Beautiful words today, my friend...thank you. :)

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  3. There is nothing sweeter than that grace. I don't know how to be a mama without it.

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  4. Thank you for sharing this today. As a momma with those almost grown kids that are now make decisions where I have to stand by and watch. it is nice to know others understand that struggle and pain. It is especially comforting to know He understands and give grace

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