Journey

And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. (Philippians 4:8 NLT)

5:00 am.  One eye opened and this was my verse today. Focus on the good. 

I'm up 45 minutes earlier today. Good. Make the coffee, preheat the oven for biscuits. Good. 

Quiet time, writing in my journal. Good. Heat the butter in the pan for eggs. Good. 

Making lunches. Good....but I need to print out the lunch menu for school so I can see what days they can buy. Printing. Good. 

What is that smell?!?.....butter burning!! Not good at all!!! 

Make the eggs for the biscuits after I wash the pan, my boy comes out and asks where are his uniform pants? Why would I have your pants? To let the hem out. 

You never gave them to me and I never got around to asking for them. No pants. To which I promptly came completely unglued. Not so good. 

Pants found hanging in my closet, cause that's how my boys mind works. He is brilliant, I can't forget to mention that. If she sees them she will remember....sigh....our brains are from different planets. I didn't see them. 

Proceed to finish breakfast making and consider ditching lunch making. Not gonna do it. Make lunches, pack breakfasts and drive them to the bus stop. Cause it's raining. Breathe. Good. 

On the bus.....two kids and two meals accounted for. I still feel frustrated at myself. Why can't I handle this better? 
I have a proctored test at 8 am. It's 6:40. I notice that the pool is pretty full. Need to dump some water. Even though its leaky, still the rain has been a blessing. Backwash just a little out. 

Jump in the shower and say some prayers. Focus on good baby girl. Dry off and remember....the water!!! Naked would be bad, so I grab a robe as I dash out the door. Thank You Lord for reminding me. Plenty of water left. 

Let the dog out. Beg him to use the bathroom. I tell him I will not be happy at all if I have a surprise when I get home. No sir. Have faith. 

I have not studied at all for this test. No. Just show up.
Just do your best. Good.
Out the door at 7:15. Thankful that my car issue yesterday was caught early and completely solvable. Protection Lord, thank You. 

No cavities in the teeth for all  three of us when we visited the dentist yesterday.  Thank You Lord for good health and good teeth that have not required braces. 

I am overwhelmed most days. I am one tiny little girl trying desperately to do this thing called life. This journey was not one I planned, yet here I am. And where I am is good. Not always easy, not always fun and someday's it's kind of lonely. But when I look at what He asks of me, what He is allowing me to do in this.....Good.
How would You ever trust me to do this Lord? Such a task. And I feel like I fail at it most days. Sometimes loving hard makes you look dumb and feel even more dumb. But I know I was made for this. Each time I get back up He says further still.....it changes me. It makes the days, the tasks seem do-able. I always said I didn't feel like a grown up. It felt pretend. I don't feel like that anymore. I feel the weight of my years, my choices. And it drives me to something more. Something lasting. Something that will make me look back one day and say, oh, I am so glad I did not quit. Thankful.

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