Topic: BROKEN
I breathed a heavy sigh when I saw today's topic. He truly does meet us in our time of needs. I have not been in this place in quite some time. Broken describes it completely. I think even my girl noticed that something is just not quite right. I fell asleep on the couch, stumbled to my bed at some point and she, my sweetest girl, put away dinner, did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen. I thought I would awake to yet another mountain of mess for me to clean, but she made sure that wasn't the case. It's that noticeable in me right now. I know this is a place that He has brought me to....to strip away all pretense and any thought that this is me or that I have anything all together, that I can do it in my own strength. I cannot. I am not. And I laid in bed last night thinking this is it....I have nothing left to give. He spoke to me 3 times with the same verse yesterday and then into this morning. He will pour into me my strength and my abilities. None of this is me. And so I know this broken place is preceding something. That scares me. I feel like I can't take one more thing. Not one. Because I naturally assume that it's more breaking and I Just.Can't.Do.It. So I am asking Him to take this, all of it. And I'm going to sit and wait quietly, patiently, because it is truly all I have left at this point. And I'm clinging to a statement that I heard from Christine Caine....the breaking always precedes the miracle. Thankful.
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It is powerful the way you take the hard and turn it into gratitude. May you find strength in joy and energy for today. Thank you for being honest in your writing.
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He's got you...praying that you will rest in His loving arms each day, knowing that He will give exactly what you need. Love and prayers to you, sweet sister. :)
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