Last...I can relate to that word. It's how I feel. Last in line, last to see an answer from Him, last place.....and so I wait. It's not fun to be last, but the time had come for me to learn what that truly meant. I always had to have the last word, be heard, be seen, in order that I might not feel like I was invisible. So He called me to small...He called me to last....to do a work in my heart. He says in His words that those who want to be first will have to be last...I desperately needed to learn that it's just not always about me and that by putting others ahead of myself, then God will put me where He wants me. Sometimes that last. But I don't belive it will be always. By being last I learned to put Him first and maybe, just maybe, that was the whole point of it all. Thankful.
Matthew 20:16; 25-28
The Voice (VOICE)
16 And that is your picture: The last will be first and the first will be last.
25 So Jesus called the disciples together.
Jesus: Do you want the Kingdom run like the Romans run their kingdom? Their rulers have great power over the people, but God the Father doesn’t play by the Romans’ rules. 26 This is the Kingdom’s logic: whoever wants to become great must first make himself a servant; 27 whoever wants to be first must bind himself as a slave— 28 just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve and to give His life as the ransom for many.