Linking up with Crystal Stine and the girls today for Behind the Scenes.....
Last week was a very busy one for me. I have felt a pressing in a way that I can't even express. So many changes. 2003 brought earth shaking changes to my world. Nothing was left untouched. I was moving in a direction that I had no idea what would be the ups and down of a decade to come....and here I find myself yet again...God seems to be a fan of do-overs until I get it right ;)
10 years ago, August brought my girl going into second grade...I homeschooled her for K5 and 1st grade. So as her brother entered K5 and she into second grade and me back to work after being home with them for 5 years.....yeah, God had big plans.
So this day last week found me and my girl standing in the hallway of her high school. She's going into something new and amazing, her brother, a sophomore now and this mama.....well, I know God is moving again. But somehow we are all different.....we see the journey that we have been on and we are a changed family... wiser, stronger, better able to shoulder those things that life has a way of bringing about.
I see that beautiful little one I took a picture of going into her first day of "real school" now facing "real life" just ahead....How did He decide to bless me so? This beautiful girl I thought would never be because why would God ever let me be a mom....the child that sent me to my knees when I discovered she was on the way, the child that gave me stretch makes and heart burn and the craziest delivery story...all 9lbs and 6 oz of her. She will be 17 soon. We share a birthstone, born in the same month. We share a smile and a stance and a heart that longs for Him, well before we ever knew it. This is the little girl that at 5 years old on August 16th announced to me "Mommy, I want to ask Jesus into my heart". It's the same little girl that walked an isle and made her decision public, without any fear or hesitation. The same one who told my dad "Paw Paw, if you ask Jesus into your heart, then you can get baptized too". So many memories this month holds for us. She is a treasure. She is a blessing and I realize she is on loan...she belongs to Him. He holds her in the palm of His hand. Thankful.